Friday, August 16, 2013

Portraits and Crossroads

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; 
for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; 
we must die to one life before we can enter another 
~Anatole France~

Hello Everyone!!! I hope you remember me!!! I have been missing for awhile from the Blog scene. 

I have been very melancholy of late.

August is a sad month for me.
My mother and I share a birthday month
I miss her sooooo.

 I go through these periods now and then. I always know that I will come out of it sooner or later. 

 This too shall pass.

Big changes in my personal life.
Good but still changes.
I just need to know how to handle them.

(Nothing is wrong with Steve and I. We are great! We will be together for the rest of our lives, going on 26 years, Love that man)

Now I have to think about Big changes in my Art life!

My art life has come to a crossroads. 

 I do not know what I will do at this point.  Do I want to start teaching on line classes?? Or teaching in my community? Do I want to do  different venues to sell my art? Branch out?? Do I want to go digital? Do I just want to do nothing and just do my art for myself? I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.  I still have not found my voice.

I haven't stopped making art. I couldn't stop if I tried!!
I will just continue to do my art!
I just am confused about the direction I want to go in.
I think it is more fear then anything.
Out of my comfort zone.
 Fear of failure, Fear of Success
Plain old fear!
Feel the fear and do it anyway!

 I have been back to doing portraits lately.

Here are a few of them.

This is my favorite thing to do

Love the female face.

Portraits in my journal


Even did a little Selfie!

I hope you have a wonderful fulfilling week ahead of you!

See you soon!


MeOfCourse said...

Hi Heather. Good to see you. All your faces are awesome. Sorry it's a rough month for you, but you have the right attitude about it. You will be successful in whatever you do. I'm sure you will come to a decision and when you do, put one foot front the other and do it girl! Take care and love your girls as always.

Faye said...

Heather, it is obvious to me that your talent lies in painting faces. They are some of the best I see when I visit PPF. They are the kind that appeal to the general public. But you alone can decide which direction to go. Hope things improve soon in whatever is causing you to have concerns.

Debbie said...

Love your pretty and expressive faces! Your trip to the beach looks like fun! We will finally have our turn in sept.

bellefrogworks said...

You portraits are wonderful. Each one is different - yet your "style" does show through. My mom died last October and August 8th was her birthday. It makes me sad and I miss her very much. I know how you feel. I am often afraid of change. I guess it's just take a step and see how it goes

Susan said...

Your faces are so expressive and beautifully done. Anniversaries are tough for many of us, as is change. One step at a time, and some how we move forward.
Take good care and remember, you are loved as you love.

Silvs said...

Hi Heather ... i love the painting at the very top of your post today, it's beautiful. It's so hard, this crossroads time. I am in it a little bit too. The best advice i ever got was to sit with it and wait till your heart speaks ... not so easy to do sometimes but i do believe the answers will come. Hang in there and keep making your lovely work. x Silvs

aimee said...

I identify with this post so much! I've been on and off the blog scene a bunch too. It is easy to keep making art but not always easy to share everything that goes into the making of it, because there are some personal things that just aren't bloggable. Wishing you strength to get through August. Beautiful faces. xoxo Aimee

Anne Manda said...

Beautiful faces! Really like the first one with dark background and doodles; nice contrast! <3 said...

Your paintings are beautiful and I am sure others would love to learn your techniques. Don't stress too much about your direction, something will 'just happen' to take you down the right road. I miss my Mum too:( I think you never really get over loosing your mum, you just learn to live without them.

denthe said...

Your faces all are wonderful, but I especially love that first journalpage. She looks so sweet and vulnerable and melancholic. Sorry to hear about your difficult time. And being at a crossroads is not easy either. I can totally relate to that since I'm in the same position myself. Often it's just about taking that first step, just doing it and not being afraid of failure. Easy to say but oh so hard to do....

Becca said...

Hi Heather! I've always enjoyed your artwork! Hope you find the path that makes you the happiest! If you did an online class, I would take it for sure! :-)