My daughter gave me her old sewing machine. This is one thing I have not mastered. I am serious! When I was in high school and we had Home Economics I was terrible. I had to make a jumper. We were supposed to put a zipper in it. We were allowed to take it home and do it. We were supposed to wear the it the next day. Back then polyester was all the rage. Well anyway, I just sewed the back of that jumper up. Who needs a zipper???? I just squeezed my skinny ass in it. It looked great. But Mrs. Bass my Home Ec teacher did not think so. I think I got a C. I also tried to make a halter top. Oh my. It had 2 sides for the breasts. One side was a Double D cup and the other was a A cup. NOT SO GOOD. Something about me and sewing machines do not go together. It was pretty bad because my mother was the best seamstress in the world she made all our clothes growing up and prom dresses, wedding dresses, Our dads coats. She was awesome. Me not so much. It did not rub off.
But things are going to change around here!
I will tell you I will master this thing. I don't know what I am going to do with it. It may not be traditional sewing but it will be some kind of sewing.
I did find out you can't mix watercolor paper and wax pencils and acrylic paint and markers. I think it is the watercolor paper that just doesn't mix. Everything smudges. Oh well that is how you learn.
When I was at the beach I made some affirmation cards. I listen and read a lot of Louise Hay. I love her simple message. You must love yourself (I mean really love yourself) and with that everything will fall in line. It is the hardest thing to do. Just look in the mirror and say "I love you" and listen to all the negative things you say to yourself. If you were talking to a friend you would say kind things to them when they were feeling bad about themselves but when we talk to ourselves we are so hard on us. What's with that! We must stop! Be kinder to you!!!! Love yourself! Make some affirmation cards and put them around the house. Start saying them out loud. They may seem strange at first but after awhile they become easier and easier to say and BELIEVE.
I know, I know I shouldn't have bought a house because of the fountain on the side porch. But I couldn't help my self. Isn't it cool. I can't believe what shape it is in after all these years. Steve said he is going to make it a constant stream of recycled water after we do the many other things we want to do. One more thing on the list. We are having a blast though.
Here is a picture of my wonderful Mr Fix It Guy. Steve can figure out just about anything. He is amazing. Still Floats my boat after all these 24 years that we have known each other. He just bought his Harley. I tell him he looks like a geek on it. But he thinks he is Steve McQueen.
That is something that I always had plenty of. I would make up plays and talk in my tape recorder. Make up stories. I was usally intrigued by the the unusal. Every Sunday night we would gather our family. Aunts, Uncles, Cousin. My cousin Amy and I would make up these plays and make up dance routines. We had so much fun.
I have always kept my childish ways. I remember when I was younger and I worked at a call center for an insurance company and the girls and I were laughing and having some fun and the supervisor came over to me and said "Heather it is time for you to grow up" I looked at her and said "I am sorry but I don't want to grow up! If that means not having fun then that would not be for me" She looked at me and walked away. Needless to say my supervisor and I became very good friends. I helped her out with a few things in her life and she helped me out. I have not seen her for a long time but I think that day she changed a little bit for the good.
I think you should surround yourself with children. They make you remember what it was like to be a child and have fun and use your imagination.
There are some days that I feel like I am just spinning in circles. I know I have to pick my self up. Dust myself off and keep on going. I have to remember why I am doing this. I want to be able to do the thing that I love the best. ART. There is a reason for everything and I will believe that it will reveal itself in time. I will never give up. I will love myself and remember that " I AM WORTHY" It is just some times you have those doubts. Am I crazy to think I can do this????? Well all I know is that I will never give up. I just started the journey. And there are going to be good days and bad days. This just happens to be one of the bad days. But there is always tomorrow. This too shall pass. I will be ok.
This painting was made for my father in law. He wants to give it to a friend that is having a double mastectomy this month. I found the paper for the dress which I think is perfect. They are the pink ribbons for the fight for breast cancer. I hope she'll like it. My heart goes out to all the women that are fighting this horrible disease. I lost my sister in law to liver cancer. She was only 42 and she had a 8 year old son. So you can see that this disease is one that is very personal to me.
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This is the back of it. He can write a special letter to her.
Oh My what a mess I am! I don't know why but I work so much better in chaos. I am going to clean up this mess.
Before I moved I had to work in my diningroom and then pick everything up and then take it out again. Now it is so great I have 2 rooms. I will only give you a little glimpse at this time. I have to clean it up and make it a little pretty. Its a mess. It's just that I work a full time job elsewhere and when I get home all I want to do is make art, not clean up. So therefore we have a mess.
This table is my magic table. It started out as an old picnic table that we had. That Steve was ready to take to the dump. Well I had other ideas for it. I started painting this table when I was waiting to see if we got our new/old house. It consumed me. Every night I would come home from work and sit at this table and paint it. I kept saying to myself as soon as this table is painted I will have my house. I manifested the house in my life. And as soon as I was finished I got my house. It may sound weird but I truly think this is my magic table All I can say is it was the first piece of furniture that we moved into the house. (See my house prior blog post).
This table has seen so much love. We have had so many parties with so many family members and friends that I can't even count. We have played poker and flip cup on it. Had many a meal on it. I love my table. It has brought such great fun in my house.
I finally finished this picture and the frame. My husband Steve has been making me frames. This painting is inspired by him. " I'M GOING TO GET UP AND MAKE MY LIFE SHINE" It is a song by Boz Scaggs. At least once a month, Steve will make me stop whatever I am doing and he puts this CD on and blasts this song and we dance and sing. It is a song that is very special to me. Many a morning I will get up and start singing this song. It is a great way to start the day. Then the rest of the day I can't get it out of my mind. There are some songs that you want to get out of your mind but this is not one of them. How could it be??
For the last two nights this moth has been hanging out with me in my art room. He is just sitting on the table and on my paints. Just hangin. I like to think of him as a moth angel. Maybe it is my reincarnated family member. Just hanging out watching me paint. I think I am in love!